Walking blindly towards the future.

Friday, February 29, 2008
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Just finished talking to Ron on the phone. I was doing my moral essay! See Ron, I'm such a good friend! >D

Was talking about the "Singapore terrorist escape". Scared the hell outta me when PohChoo told me today.

sources : http://www.iht.com/articles/2008/02/28/asia/sing.php

Terror suspect Mas Selamat Kastari, who escaped from a detention center in Singapore on Wednesday.

From what I read & understood, was that he ranaway from detention center in Singapore when he was brought to a room to wait for his family, to visit him.

"Mas Selamat Kastari, who had allegedly plotted to hijack a plane and crash it into Singapore's Changi Airport, slipped away from a detention center on Wednesday, the authorities said. Mas Selamat is said to be commander of the Singapore arm of Jemaah Islamiyah, an Al Qaeda-linked terrorist network." quoted by news.

OMG. What's wrong with the world?! Why is it so dangerous nowadays to even walk to school? The world is no longer a safe place to live in. Not even your "home".

11:34 PM

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School was fun today`. Jon, PohChoo & I sat together and was practically laughing the whole time & the last joke cracked by PohChoo made me laugh til my tears burst. Cannot stand lah.

I wanted to go back to Form 2 again. When I see my sister studying Sejarah or other subjects, I get jealous that their's are easier than form 4. =( & my sister complained it was hard. But, it WAS hard when I was at her age.

Got so much homeworks to do & I hate that we never have the chance to go out everytime I could. I hate you for not making time for me. Are we still best friends?

Whatever.

4:37 PM

Thursday, February 28, 2008
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The sweetest & cutest couple I've every known.

Brandon & Cherrie.[pictures from Cherrie's blog]

Well, I don't know them personally but I do read Cherrie's blog everytime I come online. & I really envy their lives together! Their wedding photos are just the MOST romantic ones! & I'm serious! Read her blog here.

I'm really jealous lor! I feel like getting married! =X -.-!

I spent lots of my time browsing through their wedding photos and I love them to bits & pieces! Pictures can tell a million words.

& I really wanna find a way to tell them that they're the sweetest couple I know but .. it's not like she'll entertain me -.-! I mean like.. I bet she's heard more than a zillion times. x)

Anyways, ShirLey Zhu Fu both of you together forever :)

& i'll probably get ignored and hide myself from her for the rest of my life.

Anyways, apart from reading her blog & drooling over her wedding pictures, continuosly, I went to school this morning :)

& I enjoyed school very much today! Laugh like hell together with Leticia & PohChoo during BM. Practically thanks to the cerpen "Puteri Gunung Ledang"!

I'm not gonna enjoy this weekend for some reasons.. & next Friday start holidays. One week. Looking forward to it!

& I'm gonna post up ALL my post about New Zealand, I don't care!

5:46 PM

Wednesday, February 27, 2008
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Currently listening to " Your Guardian Angel" - The red jumpsuit apparatus

I felt like making a new blog & practically start over. But, not at this point. At least, not yet ;)

I wanna go out. Out as in with friends. my close ones. I miss them so badly`

I asked Stella out but she said she HAVE to see first. She wanted to see her results. I wouldn't like it if I'm going out with a "emo" girl who doesn't enjoy herself. It's like I'm forcing her. But if she's going, I'm definitely gonna make the BEST out of it! I wanna appreciate my best friend & especially the time & memories with them!

And PohChoo! I know she'd love it cause we'll be going to SPRING! There's starbucks ;)

I mean like, it's SO fast! The first term holidays are almost here already. Holidays start next Friday due to election. One day earlier. Well, that's what I heard from Ck Lily Chai.

I bloody lost my Perdagangan essay. I passed it up at the same time as my perdagangan book. Audrey found it & passed it back. BUT, my essay's GONE! I was pretty mad! That's like the BEST & the MOST time I've spent to write it & it's just gone like that. But, It's okay la. I'll take it as a value I have to learn. I'll only pass up my "work" face-to-face to teacher. Don't care. Just felt so unfair`. Over it liao.

My geo is like one word : DIE.

Seriously, I'm gonna die once the paper is back. I was practically swearing throughout the paper -.-!

Nahh, you think I'd do that? Geez, you don't know me. I'm so DAMN HAPPY when I saw the question I wanted to faint! I was so happy that I wanted to left the whole paper blank. Don't require thinking or writing.

But, since I did study a little. I did it la. The rest depends on the luck. Geo is really not my thing. The only subject I dislike most in Art Side. The rest are just heavenly L.O.V.E!

But, what to do? I still have to sit for it during SPM. Grr.

Homework to do!

5:01 PM

Tuesday, February 26, 2008
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Currently listening to If you were mine - Marcos Hernandez

For this year, the form 4 art sides will have to take Information & Communications Technology (ICT) for another subject in SPM. I heard that it's compulsory. I'm okay with it actually because I'm always interested with anything to do with computers & softwares ;)

It would be really helpful in the future too especially in Uni & working life. But, I really have the sudden urge to learn html codes. Not just those basics ones like center? Bold? Underline? -.-! I wanna learn how to make blogskins & codes to make your own homepages & websites! That'll be interesting. I told our ICT teacher to teach us some but he ended up asking us to join the Form 2's -.-! Which is just ridiculous. Then, he said we would be able to learn by using the internet. Google them & you'll get the codes. I guess he's right.

Anyways, I've finally found the PERFECT blogskin for my blog! At least, it'll feel much better with "make-ups"! I'm gonna edit it again. I just don't have enough time tonight. But, I'm satisfied!

Thinking positively, I'm happy with my class this year with some exceptions. We'll always have a good laugh & I really hope that we'll mantain this way. The 4A's with only 18 students : )

10:10 PM

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I studied Science like a silly mad-woman yesterday night. I drank coffee last night and I couldn't sleep until Jon finished calling me. Was awaken by him at 12.00am -.-!

I thought I'll never stay awake even if I drank coffee cause it never works. But, all I remembered last night was I spent an hour or so staring at the ceiling thinking about lots of stuffs. About school, about everything.

& I think my memory is starting to fail me.

I thought I put my wallet into my uniform's pocket but I was like.. searching for it during spot check because I'll have to show them and I actually thought I lost them. Wasn't panic because I can practically guess that it's at home. Today got spot check! Kinda funny especially when Ashley was checking on the guys.

This week I'm like just so darn unhappy. I just felt like I hate school -.- with no particular reasons. I felt stupid after that.

Second bro finally start working and it feel so weird to see him dress formally =X

But, I'm happy for him cause he finally earns his own income.

& I think I'm starting to crave for a new laptop. Which is just really bad. I want VAIO!

Kors, buy for me please :D

-.- As if that'll work.

I'm starting to dislike Geo. Maybe because no one practically listens to her.. but she's pretty scary when she's angry. Ck Suzanna Chong was pretty angry at us today and it's just scary =X. Finally understands that each & everyone of us have limits when compromising.

Well, today's the end of the assessment test for the science siders & Mdm Voon told us that there'll be others from the Science stream joining us at the Art Stream. Hopefully, the number of us in the class wouldn't be that big.

& dear smart ppls, please stay at Science Stream! Thank you :D

7:10 PM

Saturday, February 23, 2008
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I felt like booking a flight an fly all the way to New Zealand all by myself. Just a dream. Wouldn't happen unless.. UNLESS... there's no reason I'll be going to New Zealand again. Sobs.

I've been delaying on the post of New Zealand. I just have a lot to catch up with since I've missed school for a period of time. But, everything's pretty well.. :)

I called Amanda today & I'm so glad I got updated with her life. I just hate it when I talk about something to a friend of mine..i'm like talking to her past. So paiseh lah & she thinks I could be a phsychologist. - _ -'' Well, I would LOVE to. But, I just cant.

Gahh, I'm practically speechless. LoL.

12:22 AM

Thursday, February 21, 2008
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I miss my classmates so much. Especially Stella, Evonne, Chris & KhungMing :(

They're like struggling in Science side & I'm struggling too cause I missed quite a lot of days for my New Zealand trip but it's just not the same! I'm struggling myself & not with them.

I just hang up after talking with Stella for more than half an hour. I miss her so badly I wanted to cry.

I miss how Stella & I always share our little secrets. About boys, about everything. I really miss our little stupid conversations that started without us knowing it. I miss her random pokes & her scaring me once i'm out of the toilet. I miss you. I miss everyone.

Now, it's time to move on. Stella isn't the one I share my little secrets with anymore. She's outdated from my secrets because we're in different class now & we hardly talk..

I never expect us to drift apart this far & I just couldn't belive it. She's not there when I needed her anymore because she's most probably busy studying & coping with the new hard subjects & I don't wish to bother her.

Everything is just different now & all I can do, is move on.

6:27 PM

Tuesday, February 19, 2008
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Gahh, that feeling again! Memorizing oral & tonnes of school stuffs to catch up once I get back to school tomorrow.

The feeling of memorizing English oral.. reminds me of last year when I was about to sit for PMR. Almost 3 months of blissful holidays, it's time to get back. I really have to tell myself it's time to face reality! That I'm no more in form 3, that I'm already in Form 4. NO more holiday mood for me. I MUST concentrate this year and do the best!

It hit me real hard, and I'm definitely not feeling good about it. But, I guess it's life. I guess I'll have to endure with this life for less than two years and goodbye, seconday life.

I really dislike the laziness in me. The blardy laziness that pull me back from being a successful person that I have always wanted to be. Another reason.

I hate that I never tried.

Okay, Shirley Wong. Listen uppp! It's time to concentrateeeee!! No more fooling around. It's the PAIN that you have to endure to success! You must achieve what you want to be & get to the university you've always dreamed off!

Off I go to memorize my oral.

6:33 PM

Monday, February 18, 2008
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I just hate that I'm so weak when dealing with things last minute, I hate that all I could do when facing problems, is avoiding them instead of over-coming them. I hate that I blame & judge others before judging myself in the mirror.

I hate that, I never learn from my mistakes. I never bothered & at the end, I regret but I'll never do anything with it.

Whyyyy?

Why do I have the attitude that nobody ever thought of? Why don't I have the attitude that I ever aim for, that I always wished for?

I hate that I can never change for the better when I have the chance, when I always have the chance.

That I laze around when nobody's looking. I hate that in you, Shirley Wong.

I hate the fact that I'm that unaware of my future. That I planned, but never work hard towards it. How unoptimistic I am.

Looking back, I have practically never accomplished something that would make myself proud of except for primary school. Looking back, I don't look at myself for who I am. Who am I?

Sometimes, I wondered. Where's the invention of the time machine?.. Will it all be different?

See what I meant? I'm avoiding the reality once again.

p/s : sorry for the emo crap.

8:42 PM

Thursday, February 14, 2008
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Finally, the last place in New Zealand before I'm back to Kuching, Christchurch.

Currently staying in Athena Motel & Apartments :) 5 star & a reasonable price for me but when I asked Mark, he said NO.

The whole New Zealand trip was... I have too many comments :D

Favourite city was definitely Dunedin. Maybe because University of Otago, Dunedin is one of my selections after I've completed form 5.

New Zealand is definitely a good place for people who love mother-nature. I'm not but I still enjoy the beautiful scenery =3

After this trip, I planned to be:

- Anti-Beef
- Anti-Lamb

Whyy?

THEY ARE SO CUTEE! T_T

We drove from Auckland to other north towns & cities + Picton to other south towns & Cities. All the way, we saw many many cows & sheeps & when I see beef & lamb.. I felt like.. I'm eating something alive? It's like against animal's law -_-''

It's summer but it's pretty cold o.O! & it rained today when it's going to be my last day in New Zealand! I haven't shopp kao kao.

I really do miss home especially my sister ;3

Will blog about New Zealand when I reached home. p/s: Photographer is Mark, my brother with his dSLR. My camera's abandoned :(

3:52 PM

Friday, February 8, 2008
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Bloody tired & exhausted.

&

it was a bloody time cause it's chinese new year in Singapore & most of the shops are not open! T_T

Alright, gotta go.

7:16 PM

Wednesday, February 6, 2008
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This would be my last post before leaving for my vacation :)

Are you watching the beautiful fireworks? As I'm typing this, fireworks are played non-stop & I think I'm getting annoyed. And as I'm typing this post, the radio's playing chinese new year songs just like every year.

Ahh.. it's the time of the year again! Where we'll be busy entertaining visitors, serving drinks & food. Everyone smiling & practicing the superstitious :)

I've just finished watching KO ONE, a Taiwan series :)

There was this part when Jiro was telling Calvin what romance is, I laughed like there's no tomorrow. It was sooo lame & funny!

The rest of the part was touching. About 3 of the guy's friendship & about how this girl Lee Shu Yan as Huang An Qi 黃安琪 sacrificed herself for Calvin(Wang Ya Se 王亞瑟). It was really so touching!

This movie's really exciting as it's really .. unexpected`

I guess i'll rate this movie 4.5/5 :D

Oh.. before I forget, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Next post, New Zealand?

11:18 PM