Walking blindly towards the future.

Sunday, April 29, 2007
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It's another sucessful sports day for Lodge!

Last night, I was wondering whether I should go for the sports day. I called Stella and she said " If you want, come lor ". Her parents are not in Kuching. No one to support her. So yeah.. after a while I decided " Ok lah! I go tomorrow to support you! " Then she was so darn happy ^__^! She said I was like her mother when I asked her not to worry to much and anxious about sports day. Stella was one of the athletes. I set my alarm to 7am this morning. Then hor, I woke up half an hour late - _ - '' *lazypigg*

My mum put me down at Jublee Hall and headed to the Tabuan Jaya Market with my maid to buy veges, meats, prawns, fish and stuff. I was there alone. Ash and Daph didn't managed make it. Oh well.

As usual, the sports day start with the athlete's marching.

From where I stood, all of them look like antss.. haha.. colourful ants from far.

I think I've mentioned that Stella was one of the athletes?

Shirley : Err... What you doing?
Stella : Umm.. stretching lar

I got her to pose! wahahahaha..

When I was there.. I witnessed .. ermm.. lotsa.. weird things. LOL.

First hor, I was standing all alone there. All of a sudden, there's a lil boy standing beside me. Playing with the rail. He go " OH NO! AHHHH! HOLD ONN! POOOFF! PAFF.. AAHHHHH! NONONO! HOLD ON!! PIIIM! PAMM! " and I just stared at him.. I wanted to say " Eh, the sky isn't falling". Then I just ignored him and watch the athletes. A while after that, there's this parent, a mum. She was jumping up and down "GOOO PURPLE. PURPLEEE.PURPLLEEE *jumps up and down*". At first, I thought her daughter or son was participating. Then after that event, there's another event. She go screamed PURPLLEEE again. So, I thought she have another son/daughter participating. But then, She go scream PURPLLE, GO PURRRPLLEE almost every event - _ - '' I thought "Impossible she got so many children one".

After that, there's a parent, this time, a father. There was an event which was rather exciting. The participants were really .. ermm.. fast.. So hor, the father was like "Si lo, si lo, si lo ( die, die die) " all the waaaay until that boy really lost -_-'' So weird lah.

I support yellow house! cause I'm in yellow house! - _ - '' Stella's yellow house too ^__^!

"Ey, I came all the way here, woke up so early on Sunday just to watch you. Make sure that you won! Or else.. ermm.. or else.. next year I don't come watch you liao!" I told Stella X D
I was so mean *evil grin*

Soo many cute lil munchkins running! so CUTE can die :D

gogogo!

so0 scary this part. At first, I was so darn happy when Yellow house was leading! Blue house won at last for this event -_ - ''

Stella, receiving medal for being the winnder for the 4x100m relay. ^__^

Sadly, after that, it was raining. But, the sports event still go on.. I pity those lil munchkins who ran under the rain. So proud of them ^__^!

Results.

1st : Red House

2nd : Purple House

3rd : Yellow House [ =' ( ]

4th : Blue House

5th : Green House

Purple House! I'm proud you guys! You've trained hard and win hard! Purple house often got last for the past few years, I heard? All of a sudden today, waaa.. got 2nd!! wo0T~` CONGRATES!

9:15 PM

Friday, April 27, 2007
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Wo0t! It's finally FRIDAY! FRIDAY WOII! -__-''

Tomorrow, no school. Sunday, no school. Monday, no school. Tuesday, no school. Wednesday, no school also. Thursday! got school liao... T__T! Although it's the holidays, I have plenty of assignments to do. Complete Geografi kerja khusus. Lotsa typings to do. This Sunday's gonna be sports day! Can't wait to go support Stella! After sports day, Stella, Daph, Ash & I would go grab some lunch. Then, they follow me home lor. After that, heheheh! Badminton match! whiieee =)

Then, on Monday, Stella, Evonne & Eileen will be coming to my house to do .. Moral project.. It'z best for us to go Evonne's house though. But then, I know my mum won't allow liaw. I've been going out almost everyday since last week. Yesterday also went out. Might be going out tomorrow and then on Sunday, sports day. Wanna go Jublee Ground again. Bwahahaha. Finally, We finished the movie Simon Birch. It was soo0 sad. TT_TT! Evonne cried the most X_X! I also cry lah. I know got some of the boys cried also. Once I turned back niah, I saw so many people sobbing with tissues. Awww .... = p Honestly speaking lor, the movie IS touching. But, I didn't cry as worse as the "grandma" movie I watched with Stella. That one.. hmm.. I cried like hell..

Watch it, if you could find the vcd. It's a movie worth watching. It thought me a lesson.

copuyrighted! X D : God created each and everyone of us in our special ways and we're all heroes in his eyes

5:29 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007
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It's a public holiday tomorrow. Planned to study tomorrow but I can predict how lazy I am going to be, tomorrow. Gosh, wonder when the laziness in me would just leave me alone! = _ = ''

Yawns* Bored. Downloaded hellova songs! so happy ^____^! Mostly by Yu Heng ones. Her voice so cute, so nice, so .. ermm.. how to say? It's just so nice that I love it. Especially the Yi Ran Shi Pen You ( Forever friends). Very meaningful. Dear LehDing, I know you're doing great! We have faith in you. People, pray for LehDing. He's this young gentlement you should get to know! I envy him. I envy his determination to live. Why is there people who always think about commiting suicide when LehDing is suffering in the hospital with tubes and tubes of medication waiting for him to take and that he WANTS to live. He WANTS to complete what he wants to achieve. Why is life just so unfair to him?! He had to go through all these.. all by himself. He's this guy, who'd always go through hardship, no matter what. He would always strive to the best.. and till the best he could get. Shouldn't we follow him ? We should follow his footsteps. We don't know how's he feeling right now. But when I visited him in the ICU unit in Normah Hospital, I have faith in him. I could see how determined he was to continue his life and I know he would made it till the end. I saw his loving family members who's in the hospital all the time who gave him support and prayers from his relatives, friends and all of us are energy to him...

He can do it and I know so.

10:30 PM

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Once upon a time, there was this girl named N. She never knew the meaning of love. She envied girls who have a boyfriend. "When will my prince ever come?" She wondered. Until, one day she met A. He was a nice and caring guy. He does not need to be good looking nor popular. She love him just the way he is.. the first day they met.. He called N.. and they talked for hours in the phone. They laughed.. and learned each other.. She thought she was just dreaming.. meeting a wonderful guy like him. She couldn't sleep that night after he called as N was too happy. She then realized the meaning of loved and cared about. He taught her to be tough, not to worried about small matters and look brightly towards the future because N was still young and there's still a long, long waay to go. He made a promise to N. He told N that.. no matter what happen in the future, he'll stand by her side and if there's anything happened, he would always be there for her. N trust him completely and put her trust on him. Since the day he called, he often called the night after and every night, N would wait for his call. Every single day seems to be a fantasy to her. She was so bright since that day and often cheerful. Even her friends asked what got into her.. some even told her that they've never seen N so cheerful before. "Is that love?" She asked herself. Just 2 weeks after that, he stopped sms-ing her. He stopped calling her. She was confused. Just the night before, they were having a cheerful talk. Wishing goodnight to each other. "What caused that? What had she done?" She wondered.. She cried, thinking about it. She knew that she can't breath without his love, without him caring about her.. and especially those words that gave her energy. When she's lazy to study, A will always push her spirit up and made her studied. He's like the goddes in her life. All of it changed.. She knew this would happen.. she knew that.. all of those fantasies, wouldn't last.. forever...

6:12 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007
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Almost all my paperssss are sort up. Except a few. Gonna have new tutor liaw. My sis & I decided that this teacher doesn't suit us. She's kinda impatient. Before my mum ask her to stop, she quit last night. So, this Friday is the last tuitin she's gonna give us. My room is so0 messy. Gonna find time to clean them up tonight, after tuition. I wanted to enjoy my yogurt and guess what? It overdued 11 days ago. !!_!!. 13 April 2007. Luckily i check the date. It's not even smelly. o.0!

I'm addicted to Oreo. Oreo? The biscuit? Darn nice. Twist, lick and dip. I wanted more. One oreo was dead today. =S. I killed it. It accidentally slip from my finger and died. Poor oreo, died on 24th of April 2007.

Darn, got tuition again. Siighs* byeee

6:47 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007
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Iglooooo. I love it`! ^____^

At first hor, once you go in. You can see beautiful waitress. They're always smiling and telling jokes. See them so happy made me felt so happy and welcomed = D

We were so new to these except Daph who went there a couple of times, who also introduced us to Igloo. So, we took some time to decide which iceee flavour to choose =D!

Green Tea flavoured Iceee
Sad to say.. it wasn't the best although the waitress told us that it's the most sold. = (

Ashley & Daph(in Igloo) posing happily while waiting for our iceee to come!

Daph was extremely happy! ^____^! She was so darn excited that she kept screaming when we were inside. LoL. We ordered a hell lotta food for 4 of us. Stella ate the least. She was the most quite one as well. We kept taking pictures despite others who kept looking at us. = D! Like sakai's.

I feel like throwing away my lappie. -.-! The internet connection is blardy slow and I had to wait for about 5-10 minutes for one picture! That's something blogspot should improve on? I'm using streamyx, darn it!

By the way, I have to be more organised. I'm starting to keep my test and exam papers instead of throwing them away or burn them. So yeah, I got tonnes of things to do tomorrow. Clear up my paperssssssssss. So messy. MESSY. Submitted my PM assignments and finished today's Sejarah's test. Don't ask how much I got. I improved though. Still, I wasn't satisfied. Goodness.. I think it's going to take me ages to finish blogging. Only posted up 1 pictures since just now.

T__T''

I'm broke. I paid Ashley's RM10 for the flowers for LehDing and I bought another Interact coupon RM5. ='( Sad to say, I spent almost all my leftover money since Saturday. I am spoilt! 2 more years and I will have to start to be independant in terms of cash $$$. If not.. one word:OMAGOD.

I heart <3>

Ashley go whatever! and Daph go huh?

Daph who enjoys eating iceee^___^

Corn flakes with peanut sprinkles iceeee! Once it is inside your mouth. You'll feel as if you're in the heaven of milk. It taste like milk that i've never tasted before! Very VERY nice! Must eat =D

This ice with strawberry champagne and cherry topping isn't that bad. It taste very nice indeed. A must try masterpiece as well. ^__^

This is the best among the best, to me. I love sour-sweet food and this suit my taste! It's sour and sweet. Sour = lemonie :D! with grape champagne topping! Fantastico! MUST TRY.

Lime Cheese cake. o.0! Niceeeee!

Everything inside was so nice, so cold but ... i felt like home.. It cost us RM45.20. The landscape there were beaaautiiifulll! even the receipt was cute ^___^!

There's more. I wanna upload more. But hor.. the internet is so slow tonight, i don't know why. T_T!

So, good night, adios. Thanks for wasting my time in uploading these! ^______^

9:49 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007
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Yesterday's outting was awesome! ^_^'

Not only awesome, us , the girls were really , really happy. We went to visit LehDing first and we brought along the flowers Ash bought. It was pretty! I forgot to take the picture of it. -.-! Anyways, my bro left the memory card thingie at office. So yeah, this post is gonna be only words. I promise, there's going to be pictures for this blog in the next post! So anyways, LehDing looks so much brighter. I was glad to see him. Knowing that he had the determination to live and I know he WILL live and complete his A-Levels. I have complete faith in him with out any doubts. So LehDing, Gambateh! We all love you and God loves you! ^___^! After visiting him, we went to the State Library. We weren't allowed to go in without the Membership card. We were all pissed because we don't go allll the waaay to the faraway library for nothing. After some .. uhmm.. quarel quarel .. we were allowed. Thanks to the Sejarah kerja khusus. When we found informations of what we needed for the assignment, we wanted to go and photostate them. Unfortunately, we need the membership card. =____=! So... as usual.. us tricky ass.. use some waay to get those infos ^___^ After that, Evonne and her cheerful cousin who laughed all the waay from the library to "Igloo" brought us to Igloo, a restaurant? Not really.. it's a chill out place where you eat only iceee! there's also desserts like cakes and fruit tarts! I was so0 glad I brought my digicam there. ^___^ ! Or else, I would miss taking those wonderful pictures. Memories! We spent about an hour there. We ordered so much and it cost us RM45.50! o.0! *faints* LoL. But hor, the price actually quite reasonable already. Since we were all such a big eater =D

After that, We went Everise to shoooop. All of us bought something. Even Stella! =D ! Everytime go shopping.. never spent on anything one... finally she bought something! A keychain -.-! but still, she spend her money okay.. I wanted her to buy the same bag as me.. but she don't want. So what to do ? LoL. I bought the most stuff. As usual = D

Hmm.. A bag that cost RM26.90

3 keychains for RM10

A CD that cost RM7 (Hana Kimi soundtrack!) *hugz it tight*

Another keychain exactly same as Daphanie's RM 9.

Pay Ashley for LehDing's flower RM10

I spent RM62.90! OmaGod. That's a lot to me okay.. I still don't earn money and I spent so much already. T_______T!

Have to starve liao during lunch time. kolien.

3:48 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007
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I just finished my Father's and Mother's day cards for Pendidikan Moral... -.- ! As usual.. last minute job.. so .. it looks like last minute rubbish lor.. haih.. and some of them told me the due date is this Friday! I finished it up tonight.. I rushed like siaw lang for those cards.. Stupiakk..

Algebraic Formulae so0o hard! T_T! Gotta try to catch up. My mind is full of rubbish right now. Got Geografi & Sejarah kerja khusus to worry about. I got Science thingie to memorise. There's a Sejarah test next Monday. I want to spend some time going through Algebraic Formulae.. just to make sure i get it 100%..

What else? I'm not finished! -.-!

Need to find some time to go to Tabuan Jaya Wet Marker for Geo kerja khusus... There's more to come...Why do I feel as if the bomb had just exploded on me.. Form 3 life.. siighs* At the same time.. Form 3 kinda fun lor.. got great and fun teachers.. but lots of pressure.. Second school examination coming up.. July!! Left about 5 months to PMR. REAL PMR.

Dear weekends, are you here yet?

During assembly today, Mr Lee touched about LehDing. I wonder how's he right now? I was shocked. I sorta shivered when MrLee told us that .. LehDing's in Normah now. I miss his smile. He's a tough guy.. going through all those by himself..how much i wished I could have the chance to talk to him .. to smile at him once more.. I miss LehDing..

Dear God, please lead LehDing towards the bright side of life.. I do not wish to see him suffer anymore.. It hurts to see someone normal like me.. who doesn't appreciate life.. whereas he.. managed to go on with his life in a wheelchair.. I learned a lot from him .. I learned to appreciate my life more than before.. to go on with life no matter what..

Dear LehDing..

Be strong, my friend. No matter what happens, I'll always stand by your side. I will never forget you. Although we don't have classes together.. I'm happy that we've been schoolmates before. Everytime I saw you, I wanted to smile and said hi.. but there's always someone who blocks me or .. you weren't looking at me.. so yeah, I never have the chance. LehDing, be strong because all of us in Lodge including Mr Lee and the teachers would love to see your smile again.. We would love to see the strong LehDing who studies and strive his best in his studies.. We will wait for you, LehDing = ) ..

10:31 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007
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It seems as if it's just yesterday I'm in standard 1, joining other students in SRK St Mary. I still remembered the first time I joined the Standard 1 students. Most of the students there were.. tough.. they weren't crying. They get to cope up with the new surroundings just fine. But not me. I cried and pulled my mum's hand every morning in school until 2 weeks after school re-open. I guess i'm not the person who gets to mix with anyone, anywhere. I'm not pretty like all those teenagers and not popular like them as well. Sometimes, I wish I do. Up til today, I'm already 15, in Form 3, studying in Lodge. Time flies when i tried recalling my past. How time flies when I had to sit for my UPSR and now, facing PMR. Real soon, I'm facing SPM. Can you belive how fast time flies?

Siighs*

I'm afraid of growing up. I'm afraid of living without everyone who have been with me since forever. I felt really greatful having them by my side. Some people have been staying quietly by my side when I'm facing troubles. They never seem to leave me..guess that's what true friends are for? Unfotunately, I never seem to notice them.. I never seem to appreciate them.. I never even take a second to say ' Thank you '. Some kind of friend I am , ey?

When we look back at our past, we'll laugh at it. I still remembered, when I was in Kindergarden, a bestfriend of mine, Khung Ming , accidentally took back my schoolbag. Not only she brought back my bag, she ate my kuih! -.-! Up til today, she's still my bestfriend. Not only that, she's sitting beside me in school . = ) .

We had a good laugh talking about our past. Stella, Khung Ming & I have been friends since kindergarden. We had tonnes of stories to tell. Ah, how much I wish time would freeze. I can't bear to see us splitting very soon. Khung Ming's moving to Green Road next year. Chris might be studying in New Zealand. All seperating from each other.. my bracelets of friendship ... the beads are falling apart... siighs* But, what can I do ? Nothing. All we could do .. is to promise each other to keep in touch. But, will this last? Will our friendship last? ...

After Form 5, after SPM... Most of us would be studying overseas.. Some to Perth, Melbs, Sydney, England, KL, Londan.. all around the world. We won't be staying as 'one' anymore. We won't be sitting in the canteen.. gossiping .. siighs* There won't be any Saturday shopping.. There won't be any concerts we would be going together..

We made promises.. that we would always, ALWAYS keep in touch. Will this last? Will we really be friends forever? Will these promises last forever? Will we keep it? siighs* I really don't know how much time we could stay as we are right now. All I know is.. it isn't enough ...
Let's staay... as friends forever.. let's show others .. the meaning.. of friends forever..

10:02 PM