Walking blindly towards the future.

Thursday, May 31, 2007
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I just wanna say sorry. I don't deserve your forgiveness. But, all I could do is say ...

sorry once again. =) ...

9:54 PM

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Guess what happen? ...

MY 4TH EAR-PHONE LOST!! Can die now!

T _____ T

After the last post, my parents, bro and sis went our for lunch at Pizza Hut. I THINK i put the ear-phone on my lap.. then when we reached.. i step out of the car and it might have drop without me noticing it!

AHHHHH!!

How come all ear-phones and I got no yuen fen (jodoh) one!!

How come liddaT?!

Thanks to my sister! She gave me hers! ;) awwW! She knows I can't live without an ear-phone (it's not like she could anyway) ! ^^ luvv yaaa sis!

YAY! Mum confirm liao! Grandma's birthday's gonna be in Li Garden this Saturday night! ^__^ wo0o0oT =)

I wanna watch so0 many movies! -__-''

movie series I wanna watch :
* It started with a kiss
* KO ONE
* The X-Family ( not out yet ) T_T
* Romantic Princess! (not out yet ) T_T
* Hana Kimi 2!! (not out yet! ) I wanna buy the full set of Hana Kimi 1 too :D
* True Love 18
* Ming Yang Si Hai
* My secret garden
* Seventh grade
* My Secret Garden II
* Love contract! :D (Mike He + Ariel Lin ;) ]
* Tian Wai Fei Xian
* It started with a kiss 2
* Legend Of the Condor Heroes 2007

T_____T

I wish.. to own all the vcds! just let me keep on dreaming ! T__T

5:45 PM

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Woke up kinda late this morning.. around 7.15am. Then kinda rush for extra class cause' it start at 8am. Just finished extra class! Finally! No more liao. But, need to go back again this Tuesday to hand in the kerja kursus. AHH. At parent's office now. Sorta bored but the best thing is being with my family members.

Bought another ear-phone today. I bought 3 times already and this is the 4th time. >__
I was talking to Ash, Daph & Hong Shen the whole time. Well, that's after I finished my work lar X__X! Send some songs from my hp to Ash's hp. Nothing much happened today except my target to finish Ck Danny's 1000++ BM questions. Hong Shen finished ALL his holiday task! And now all he gotta do is prepare for oral topics and study for EXAMS! walao. I ask him "Finish maths? " He go " Haiya.. that one.. sap sap soi (easy peasy )" Same goes for Geo. I need to be more hardworking liao. T__T! Fun time's over.

12:23 PM

Wednesday, May 30, 2007
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Just came back from watching Pirates Of The Caribbean; At World's End! It rocks lar! Well, thanks to Johnny Depp! =D He looks darn cute and hawtt in the movie that I kept drooling all the way in the cinema >_

Mr Gipps : Hooraaay!~

Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) : Mr Gipps? You may throw my hat

*Mr Gipps throw his hat high up to the air *

Jack Sparrow : Alright. You can go get it back now :)

LMAO. Kept laughing all the way.

I LOVE HIS ACCENT!

He's just gorgeous!

He's a good comedian ;) <3*

6:33 PM

Tuesday, May 29, 2007
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Goshh. I lay my love on you, SE Z750!

It's SO CUTE.

I love Sony Ericsson phones overall. I've used Motorola, Samsung, Nokia.. SE.. The best still Sony Ericsson! <3*

Z750 comes in 2 colour which is my favourite combination of colours! PINK and BLACK!

sources: http://www.gsmarena.com

It's so CUTE and PRETTY and GORGEOUS and BEAUTIFUL and NICE and MINE! -__-''

Haiiyor.. my nafsu towards handphones cannot cure already T__T. I'm obsessed with it. What can I do about it when you DESPERATELY want something? My birthday this year ar! wink*wink :P

A phone worth purchasing! Kor, mummy, papa! I want this phone! T____T I know I should be loving my W850i but .. but.. siiighs* I still love it lar! You can see me dusting it every weekend some more! >_<

9:04 PM

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I was on the phone with Henry (Evonne's lil cute monster! ). I was like " You got zero for my test! Badbad! " He go "I got 100 in school! " I was like " don't lie! I know you got zero! " He go " Is school I got 100! " LOL. DAMN CUTE.

BWAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA. -___-'' MIGHT be goin for Jap lunch later! :D

12:36 PM

Sunday, May 27, 2007
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Last Friday was teacher's day! School ended at about 12+. After that, our class started party-ing. Guess what? Mrs Lim said there's going to be extra class for Sejarah starting this Monday - Thursday from 8.00-10.30am. I was happy but .. kinda angry and sad at the same time. There's tonnes of works + oral topics to discuss over the holidays and basically 1 week was taken for extra class. I don't know what I'm worried of right now. I'm afraid I can't cope up with the PMR subjects this year. Siighs*

I feel like hiding from reality, but I know I can't. I feel like inventing a time machine. I feel like being a small kid again. I wanna forget what's happening and just spend my whole life being happy and not worrying about anything. But the fact is, I can't. As we grow older, problems started bombarding us like rain falls and the worse part of all .. is solving them after sleepless nights of thinking about it. What about the future? Ahh.. I hate thinking about that. I felt as if people's treating me for granted and they can just treat me according to their mood.

The conclusion is, I don't know what I'm talking about. Going out for dinner. tataz.

6:33 PM

Thursday, May 24, 2007
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When someone tells you that you can't do something...

Look around...

Consider all options...

Then GO for it!

Use all the things God gave you!

Be creative!

In the end, you will succeed and prove them wrong!

Always remember
"When there is a will, there is a way"

oh yeah, before i forgot! There's this video I MUST show you !:D trust me, you won't regret. ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPswPA8pMpU&mode=related&search

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPswPA8pMpU&mode=related&search=

9:33 PM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007
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Before the second break, during library period (1.40pm), we had to return our library books cause holiday's here! TWO WEEKS! :D~ Soo.. We had to read magaziness. Then, I took Lodge's 1996 magazine! Thought of looking at my kindy pictures and others as well, who are now my classmates or my schoolmates! I was in Lodge in Kindy A, B and C. Then, I moved to St. Mary. After primary 6, I moved back to Lodge in Form 1. I was so0 glad to meet my kindy friends! Friends such as Khung Ming! Stella! Diana! Azzah! Lawrence! Haha. Looking back at my past, when I was still in kindy.. all thoseo memories.. made me felt as if i wanna be a small kid again. When we met, we had stories to tell. Laughters fall upon us.

After the second break which was the last two periods, was BM. Ck Danny was also talking about kindergardens ! About little kids, kid's movies and what we usually do when we were small. We had a good laugh. Ck Danny rock lar! He's usually one of my reason I love school this year because of his funny-ness!^^

Evonne! Guess what??

I saw a ciplak version of POCKY! It's name is ROCKY :D

and guess what?

It doesn't taste different nor look different! It's exactly the same pocky I ate at your house! =D The best thing is.. We can find them in CHOICE DAILY which is in KUCHING and not only in Singapore! yummy!~

7:24 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007
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hateful. friends. family. results. happy?!

4:55 PM

Sunday, May 20, 2007
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This morning, My family and I woke up earlier than the usual Sundays. We got ready then headed to BDC Expert Food Court for breakfast. After that, We went to our 4th aunt's house and picked her. After that, we continued our journey to our 3rd aunt's kampung house! I loveeee it there. It was VERY VERY hot, though. Or else, everything would be just perfect. I pity my sister who suffered from terrible mosquito bites. All of us played jokes on her, saying that she did not bath. But, she's always the one whose first priority is hygenic. My mum even said that,"guys who are un-hygeinic sure cannot win her heart lar!" which i thought was 100% true. It was a long journey. But, it wasn't bored like the previous times. It was.. ermm.. I felt that the journey was shorter than before.-__-. I've been addicted to one of Ariel Lin's song. It's one of the songs in Tokyo Juliet! " Fei Ni Mo shu"! <3*>

How much I wish Blogspot could improve their speed in uploading photos. I need to take soo long to upload photos. T__T! Plus, I got TONNES of photos to upload in this post! Oh yaa, My camera died on me. When I took the first photo, It says battery flat! Guess how I took those photos? I on the camera, quickly take one photo, then shut it. On the camera, quickly take photo, then shut it. I kept doing it the whole journey! I think I did it for a hundred times or so. Pity me.

%*#@!

I really hate uploading photos. It takes forever to even upload a photo! &^%#!

Chill!*

Let me just forget about it and type MORE.

On the way, I realized that the place is much different than the last time I went. There's more shops built. There isn't much greens anymore. But still, there's some. I think I've mentioned about how much I loved the greens there and that the reason I follow my parent's there is because of the beautiful sceneries and of course to visit my aunty and her familylah. I heard that she'll be moving to Kuching Town maybe next year because his youngest son would have graduated from high school. She also said that she can't bare to see her husband who work at Kuching to ride motorcycle from their house to KUCHING. Do you have any idea how far that is?! I'll go crazy. What to say it have been yearssssssss he have been going through these. Well, this might also means that this would be the last time I'll be going there. I'm glad I've made it. =) . So yeah, the conclusion is the photos are still not uploaded!Aiiyor. I'm getting really pissed off liao lar.

Finally! some photos! :D On the wayy....

I was studying on the way but I kept getting side-tracked! Cannot stand ler. I loveee the greens there! Plus, in the car, the air-cond was full blast! Cooling!! On the way, I saw many orang-orang (scare-crow)! I didn't take any photos of it though. It was in the middle of paddy plants! LoL! It's VERY cool for me cause I've never seen any real ones! >.<>

In the ferry... ^^

Splendid view if only the water were as blueee as the sky!! Siighs* water pollution, babe! I was so darn happy to reach mah aunt's kampung house! ^_^ It was painted white! I couldn't recognize it anymore. -.-

dragon fruit plant!

juicy and sweet! :D

Jagung plant! :D
All the flowers and plants were planted by my aunt! ^__^

Nice hor the curtains? Made by my aunt!

Before we get into my aunt's kampung house, we had to crossed that bridge. The looks-like-gonna-break-soon bridge. Damn scary. Everytime we crossed that bridge I'll be like "AHHH! AHHHH! NOOO!" -__-''

Try to imagine. The bridge look so darn small! And we had to drive through it using a NAZA KIA! Walao. Can you imagine if .. ermm.. I better stop cursing :D

Last but not least..

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I miss it already =( I miss the fresh air there. I miss listening to the birds chirping. =::(

Goodbye, sweetheart*

6:27 PM

Saturday, May 19, 2007
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This morning, went for breakfast. Then, wait for Stella at my parent's office. After that, go celebrate with b'day friend. Then, Stella, b'day friend & I walked to BDC Everise. Then, he go home liao. So sweet ar, send us there then walk home. XD. After that, Stella and I melepak for maybe an hour or so. After that, my bro fetch us back to my parent's office. Then, we did our kerja kursus together. We finished it in 45 minutes. -___-''. I fell asleep in my parent's office. My mum woke me up! >.kampung. Greens everywhere. We don't usually go there. Maybe once or twice a year. It's very far from the city. Maybe about 2-3 hours car ride. So, usually if it's raining, it would cancel the plan. Hopefully, it's not going to rain tomorrow. I really wanna go ! I don't wanna miss this chance! It's so0 peaceful there. All Greeeens and fressh air. Hope it's like, cloudy tomorrow. Not hot ^^ Well, will blog about tomorrow IF it's not raining tomorrow!

Anyways, pictures of HENRY, Evonne's cutie brother who I tutored and came back with Dinasaur egg! He's my beloved baobeii! -__-''

Fuyoh! so cute can die!>,<>

9:24 PM

Friday, May 18, 2007
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Most of the post in my blog is about "weekend's happiness". I guess that shows how much I was always looking forward to the weekends. This week's kinda.. rush. Finished my math's excercise book just now together with Stella. I forgot to bring my math's workbook home! so many excercises in there. So, I asked my bro to bring me to school tomorrow morning to take my workbook. Then, tomorrow morning, I'll b waiting at my parent's office for Stella. She'll be coming over, then have breakfast. After that, meet up with the birthday peep! a.k.a my c.s (counter strike) partner! I'm now totally blank of what to buy for em'! I'm hopeless when selecting friend's birthday pressie. Anyways, Stella came to my house just now. She reached around 7.30pm. In school today, she was like "my mum bought me a new phone! ". I was like "omg! u serious?! wad model ? wad model?!" LoL. She even told me that she wanted a new phone when she saw mine -__-'' I influenced her too much. It ain't good. So, anyways...! Before she came, I was so darn curious what her NEW handphone model is!

SLVK Motorola!! Darn niceee! I usually don't support Motorola cause I heard that it's very fragile. Well, not only from ONE person but most of my friends. Last Monday, Evonne & I were busy preparing for teacher's day surprise. I went to her house last Monday. We had so0 much fun together. I taught one of her twin brothers, Henry. I taught him so0 hard! And guess how much he got?! "0"! ZERO wei... T_T! Wanna cry liao. Evonne and Stella taught Edward and he got 10%! Atleast better than ZERO okay. So.. I brought my laptop there and transfer-transfer thingie.

Evonne's computer!

Evonne : computer : laptop =D

I started watching "Tokyo Juliet"! The movie, not bad lar. But, still cannot win "Hana Kimi"! Inside Hana Kimi, Wu Chun act so DARN CUTE AND GOOD! Like pro !! But hor, Tokyo Juliet, not really satisfying lor. Tokyo Juliet was released a few years ago whereas Hana Kimi released last yeaR? WAAAR! Wu Chun's acting skills improved! <3>

Looking back, I realized, a lot of things happened this week. There's so many test I had to go through, at the same time, organizing the teacher's day surprise. I'm glad everything went well. I couldn't sleep for several nights. But, when I look at the result, it's all worth it.=).

Well, let's see what to do tomorrow.

a) Type Sejarah Kerja Kursus

b) Do math's workbook

c) Study Sejarah test!

Do you realized that almost every of my post, sure got mentioned about Sejarah test one? Know why ?! My sejarah PUAN gave us test every week. Tired lerrrrr. Do you know what do I felt like doing now? I wanna go to a beach. Somewhere with beautiful sceneries. I wanna get away from reality. I want fantasy. I wanna go to a beach, lay down and think. What do I really want in life? Straight A's? Ahh..

10:10 PM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007
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16 May hor today.. Teacher's day! But, our school celebrate Teacher's day on 25th May this year which is about a week later? So, today, our class gave Mrs Yap ( our class teacher) a surprise Teacher's Day.. ermm.. celebration in the lecture theatre. I bought my radio and a singapore-made movie entitle " Sorry, Teacher". Mrs Yap told us that she ALMOST cried because of our power point presentation. My brother came late. He was suppose to send the flowers and cake. He came at around 2.40pm when he's suppose to be there by 2.25pm. So, I ask teacher's permission to go toilet. But, I went out to get the flowers and cake instead. Then, I left it in the lunch room. Fortunately, I saw the "friendly" aunty there. She's always in the school, taking good care of her daughter in kindergarden or primary school and her son in Form 4. What a coincidence, she was reading newspaper. So, I ask her to help me jaga the cake. She happily agreed. Then, when the presentation finished, Fiona help me a lot. blocking me saying " googogoo!" Then, I quickly ran out of the lecture theatre and ran to the cake and flowers, took them, said thank you to the aunty and then waited outside. Show signal to Evonne, to inform that we have a gift for her. Then, after that, I was blocked by Alistair first. Then, he moved than I passed the flowers to Mrs Yap. She was so0 darn surprised and happy. I was like "Eh, Chris! Why you din't take pictures of me passing the flowers and cake one? " Then she go "Eh, your fault lar. I ask you to stay there, stay there! you still go away -__-'' What to do ?! " -__-'' So anyways, after that, we watched the movie lor. So nice :D! Then, the bell rang liao. After that, everyone go back. But, Stella & I volunteered to bring the cake and roses into her car. But, before that, I wanted to take a group photo. So, I asked Tim to help me take a group photo. But, only Evonne, Stella, Chris, Tim, Mrs Yap and I was there. So we took a group photo. Tim, the photographer. Terrible photographer XD bwahaha. Ok lar. Today's event went great excluding a little cacated part. Will post up the photos after Chris send them over, i promisedddddd!

9:33 PM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007
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Sometimes, i really cannot stand such people.

I went to "Taka cake House" (bakery lah) to buy our class teacher's day cake. But, before that, of course we ask the price for the different types of cheese cake right? Some look like cheese cake but then it's not. So, I ask what flavour it is and the cost. The girl look at me, like be song like that ar! Felt like chopping her into pieces than flushing her down the toilet. Then hor, the cake a lot of weird stuffs. Some fruits thingie on top. So, I told them to take out the decorations cause I wanna ask them to write words on top using icing. Then the girl like really really be song already! Look at me as if wanna kill me like that. Ahh! I kept reminding myself not to be angry cause of some uneducated people. It really pisses me off. I've met quite a lot of them acting like that. Working at TAKA already wanna act as if CEO of a bank like that. But, there's some who are really humble ar! Too nice to describe already. Hopefully the planning tomorrow for the teacher's day would go right! Hope hope! Help me pray ar! Will blog tomorrow for more pictureS!

6:46 PM

Sunday, May 13, 2007
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My bro brought me to kenyalang yesterday! My favourite-test place ! I love watching movies bar, Hongkong dramas , Taiwan series, korean drama, Singapore movies, etc! Blahhh! My eye was caught by , Tokyo Juliet! Wu Chun inside!! Hope he no kiss girl inside >_< *<3*!>

BUT,

I can't watch them yet. Maybe next weekend T__T. Got Sej test this week. Two Sejarah test, 1 Maths Test and BM ekspedisi test! Got terrible headache liao. siighs* This year is full of test and assignments.

Wanna go liaoo0! time pass so0 fast! now already 2.20pm. Siighs*

1:09 PM

Saturday, May 12, 2007
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Jack Neo

Who's Jack Neo ? He's this really popular Singaporean director! I love his movies, a lot. In my opinion, he's a really talented director. He produces good and high quality movies. I love watching them. In fact, I watched almost ALL his movies and I'm truly satisfied! So, dear friends, watch his movies! It's made up with good and touching moral values! ^__^'' I just finish watching his latest movie, "Just Follow Law". It's damn nice la. I love the movie's songs as well! The main characters in the movie are Gurmit Singh (a.k.a Phua Chu Kang) and Fann Wong.

Fann Wong

Gurmit Singh (All time favourite comedian, Phua Chu Kang! )

This movie is hilarious, sad and meaningful at the same time. Jack Neo is very, very creative. He's able to produce movies which is really meaningful. It relates to everyday life especially Singaporeans. Singapore should be proud to have such a talented and gifted producer. Love Jack Neo*

10:38 PM

Friday, May 11, 2007
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exhausted.

I'm very worried and stressed. Got tonnes of things to finish up. Sejarah Kerja Kursus is bothering me. Will be going to Evonne's house and she'll be guiding me. I'm bothered and I don't know why. I'm now made up of rojak. Mixed feelings. Happy, sad, angry... blahhhhh... blahhh...

9:32 PM

Sunday, May 6, 2007
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A letter to Mark,

This morning mummy told me it's your Chinese birthday. But I thought it was 9th of May. Then mummy said usually you celebrate your chinese one. Soo! Since it's a lovely and freeee Sunday, I decided to blog about YOU. ABOUT YOU for your birthday! And for your information, I don't take this just for something to blog about. It's something that have been kept inside me since I was born but I got no idea how to express it and that I'm shy to tell you in real life as well as in msn because you will reply me in seconds and will give me that "weird" look. Sms is too short and it's costly as well. So, the best way is to blog about it.

So here goes.

I know that we don't get along like how you got along with Cindy and that you treated me differently. Shuddup. I told you that but you kept denying it. But it's the fact! I don't hate it thou and I found out why. I know my attitude and Cindy's are totally different and that in your life, I'm a spoilt, rude and pampered sister. Yes, I am. I still remembered when you disagreed completely when I wanted a cell phone and I will always go "I don't care. I tell mummy liao " and you would always say "Ok, go tell mummy. See mummy will buy for you or not". I was scared everytime you said that because your words often influenced mummy's decision. At the end, I still end up having a cell phone.

Do you still remember when we were still staying at our old house? You were still studying in Kuching High and I was studying in ST Mary Primary School. Everyday, in the afternoon at about 5, I would go out and play with my childhood bestfriend, Marcus. At that time, we didn't have automatic gate. We still have to use keys to unlock the lock and you always took the keys with you and that you only let me out after I cried, terribly. I never doubt that the WHOLE neighbourhood heard my crying almost every single day. Up til today, I could not find the reason why you did not allow me to play at our safe "lorong". You made me hated you at that time.

Besides that, when I was at primary 5, AhB(elder bro) made me an e-mail adress, thanks to Angel. I love going online but I wasn't addicted, was I ? One day, when I on the computer, I couldn't log in. Guess what? I had to enter a password. I guess you didn't allow me to go online. But why?...I always had to "curi curi" go online. All my friends kept laughing at me in St Mary's when I told them that I couldn't go online because my brother "safety-lock" the computer. At that time, I thought you were selfish.

Not only that, there were actually a lot more. But, I'll just get straight to the point.

As I grew older, I realized that you cared a lot about me. Mum told me, all you did for me was for my own good. I kept quiet instead of telling mum it's not true like I always did. Do you still remembered when my eczeme skin was really terrible when I was in standard 6? You persuaded mum to bring me to see a skin specialist. That was before you went to Perth to persue your studies. But, when you're in Perth, you were still worried about my skin? Mum told me that you often asked how's my skin doing.

I realized a lot of changes in you after you came back from Perth for the holidays. You're not as rude as you have been before. You started to appreciate the presence of your parents and not only thinking about freedom. You were lucky to be going to Perth only when Louis have been there for 3 years. You have a car, a house to stay in. Not like Louis who have to suffered more than you do.

I still remembered when we quarelled really terribly because of someone. Someone who completely took over you. Did you realized that? I told mum that I was worried about you and that it might influenced your studies. Guess what? Mum told me something so beautiful.

" Siawb is a big boy already. You don't have to worry about him. He knows what is right and wrong to him. Just wait and see ".

Siawb, mummy and daddy can't live with us forever. You've missed out a lot. What happened when you're not here with us. Troubles that are faced by daddy and mummy, all of us know about it except you and that when I told mummy that I must let you know.. mummy would always go " Don't need. Don't let him worry. ". Can you see how much mummy loved you? So don't go disappointing her over and over again. The same advice goes to me.

So siaw b, HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY!

Grow up ar...!

Song dedicated to everyone!

1:08 PM

Friday, May 4, 2007
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Waa.. so tired... Have been lazing around since I came back from school. >_

I MUST buy the movie " It started with a kis" tomorrow! or maybe "Tokyo Juliet"! Obsession with movies isn't a good thing. o.0! Next Tuesday got Essay Writting Competition ar.. siighs* and the chosen theme was "Responsiblity". Why do I feel as if.. that word is hunting me? Have I fulfilled my responsibility ? Have I disobeyed any of them? =X Honestly speaking, I did lar ok. Hate to admit the fact.

Honestly speaking, Jap's songs are.. so0 nicee! =X
Sooo, anyways today got Sejarah test and I studied last night! But, I got side-tracked! I started cam-whoring

-__-'' *studystudystudy*

*duckieduckz*

I am out of idea what to blog about. Gosh, I'm really tired liao. Will keep my blog updated!

tataaaz!

oiNkz!

9:58 PM