Walking blindly towards the future.

Saturday, November 24, 2007
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I was looking through my previous post again. I was really proud to own a blog that truly belongs to me. Like the post on the night before PMR. Reading that post reminds me of that night. When I was thinking, what if I didn't get an A for that paper?

I really have to prepare for next year already. I'm gonna try my very best to excel in my studies. After all the lessons I've been through. I think it's really the time for me to change and think about my future lor.

My 2nd bro's coming back on 14 Dec. Which is like really soon. After him, it's gonna be my turn. 2 more years and goodbye Malaysia. I wonder.. will I turn out to be what I wanna be? Or totally the opposite?

What will I be when I'm working?... Will I be fired after only working for a week? Am I gonna survive with porridge and potatoes? @_@

Can't imagine. I think it's too early for me to think about those. =)

Gonna enjoy my life to the fullest now!

7:57 PM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007
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I've been really bad luck recently. Everything in my life seems dark ahead.

Whatever in my hands, sure spoil one. The dvd player which I used to watch the movie died right after I use it. My laptop is undergo-ing "organ transplant" in the "hospital". My camera passed out and decided to come back alive when I really, seriously need it.

Last night, when I was reading a blog, the printer went crazy and started to print the 22 post (which is like the whole blog post) -__-'' I started to panic that I just restarted the whole computer.

Just a moment ago, when I wanted to select print for a document, the printer decided to jam on me. Darn! Then, when my bro stood beside me, then I select print, it came out perfectly.

Enough with the unlucky post!

2:58 PM

Tuesday, November 20, 2007
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I'm not buying a new camera. It's just a gift after you redeem points you earned from your credit card. It'll take about a month for the camera to come =( I'm anxiously waiting for it right now.

The model of the camera's SONY! DSC-S650. I'm not sure about the function but it sure isn't as slim as my Nikon coolpix S9 digicam. =( Which means I won't be able to fit it into my pocket like the camera I'm using right now.

We'll see how good the camera would be when it arrive.

All I know's it's 7.2MP, 3x optical zoom, ISO 1000 sensitivity, 2.0'' LCD screen and a 24MB internal memory.

I have always wanted to own SONY things. Like SONY VAIO & SONY CYBERSHOT T200.

The Sony DSC-S650 !

@ _ @ !!

Can't belive it's 20th of November already! Time pass so fast! One month plus to PMR results! To school re-open!

Best part of all, my second bro (who's gonna be my personal driver) is come back from Perth liao. *evil laughs*

5:35 PM

Monday, November 19, 2007
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Last night, I've just watched a movie called "BRATZ ".

The first thing that pop in my mind when talking about BRATZ is the .. barbie doll.. I used to own one =X

So anyways, back to the movie. The movies was okay i guess. But Cheetah Girls is still better. The theme of the story is basically about friendship.

My favourite character in the movie's Janel Parish.

Her voice is super sweet can. The video of her singing "Rainy day" is at the end of the movie when all the credits are out. Luckily I didn't just stop the video or I'd regret very much. I'm bloody obsessed with this song. -__- ''

In youtube, the URL's disabled, so I can't put it in my blog. =(

BUT, if you want the link...

here it is : http://youtube.com/watch?v=-WtrchzjrUs

If you're looking for good movies to watch, this would be a rather good suggestion =)

7:01 PM

Sunday, November 18, 2007
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I don't keep a diary. Do you?

I know my bro used to own one. I found it once in his room and I read it. So what? It's not like you really put it aside if you know that it's a diary! We're all like that lar. Curiousity kills as Ron says it.

I don't even know how or why I started blogging. Maybe I got inspired by famous bloggers? I really don't know lar. But isn't it good? Things I wanna remember, things I wanna look back. Mistakes, ups and downs of my life. I don't wanna forget how I go through those.

Cedric is right. I'm always that blogger who only wanted attention and readers. Sometimes, I really envy people's blog who has tonnes of comments and visitors. But me? I don't. I get discourage and I really wanted to give up on blogging. But then, I realize that it's not important. I have the MOST important reader already and that's me.

I'm sorry if I've annoyed people who have been reading my blog and just hate it when I indirectly or directly mention about readers, readers and readers! Really sorry!

I realize a lot after I started to blog. I realize that this is mine. I own this website but you have the decision to leave or continue reading. I don't mind. I don't have the ability to satisfy people like other bloggers do and I know I can't. This blog, is for me to keep the records of my life. I keep updating this blog for myself! I don't wanna make this blog a burden to me.

After I've realize all those. I enjoy blogging to the fullest. The most important bit is satisfying myself.

So, if you haven't started blogging. Do try! You have nothing to lose right? It's FREE!

5:38 PM

Friday, November 16, 2007
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We're all humans and we're all created by God. There's always a saying that says nobody's perfect or, we're equal / we're all the same.

BUT life's different to everyone.

ONE person can treat many many ways to different people. Get it?

As an example, Adam's a rich kid while Kelvin's a below average kid. There were 10 kids who joined the trip to the beach and their teachers allow them for a swim. The wave were too strong that Adam and Kelvin got washed away. But, the teacher only intend to save the rich kid. Why? Because the rich kid got money mar. Their parents sure very kamsia(thank) the teacher surely give $$$$ . But of course, not all people are like that. But there are some in the olden days. Actually, this is not an example lor..-__-'' It's actually based on a real experience. Not by me but by someone close to me.

Is it the fact of life that rich people are look up and average-paid people are look down?

It's like when you're driving mercedes, you get to park at a VIP place and give tips. But when you're driving a kancil, you get chased away saying that this is reserved?

Have anyone gone through those dreadful experience?

I hate it like that but I can't change anything.

It's like, most of us want to pass with flying colours and get scholorship and get into one of the best universities in the world then settle down at a well-paid job. But there are some of us that couldn't make it due to financial problems, etc.

In primary school, I remember my English teacher asking our class to write a short essay on " What I want to be when I grow up".

And surely most of us go like..

"When I grow up, I want to be a doctor "
"When I grow up, I want to be a scientist"
"When I grow up, I want to be a lawyer"
"When I grow up, I want to be a .......! "

Any of you EVER have the ambition to be a ...

rubbish collector?
OR
cleaner?

You know, I don't like how some people convinced their child to study hard.

As an example..

"Boy, you have to study hard starting today onwards okay? Mummy/daddy don't want you to be a toilet cleaner later."

"Girl, if you don't want to be a rubbish collector, smelly smelly one, you have to study hard! "

It's just plain insulting.

Instead, I look up at them. You think they want to be a cleaner? You think they like to be a rubbish collector? Everyday picking up your dirty tissues, washing your toilet after you poo. They WORK to earn money. They let down their own name to work and earn money to support their family. They deserve at least a smile everytime you walk pass them.

I know someone who look down at herself VERY much because she's not well-educated. She studied up to only primary 6. Everytime people talk to her, she look at her feet. Not looking at the person who talks to her at all. She hardly speaks. Maybe after a month she works in a place, she only started to smile at people.

Try putting your feet into her shoes, you sweep, you mop infront of customers. You wash toilets infront of your collegues but she/he's a office clerk when you're just a CLEANER. Do you understand this feeling where people would just stare at you like they never blink their eyes.

Life is unfair, so just live up to it.

10:44 AM

Wednesday, November 14, 2007
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I got no idea what the title got to do with this post.

So anyways, my sis complained that my blog is getting dryer than ever. No new post, no visitors liao.

Firstly, I wanna say a BIG SORRY to my blog and my readers (whoever you are).

I'm angry at myself! But at the some a little proud la. Know why ? This is the LONGEST blog I've kept! I used to have A LOT A LOT A LOT of blogs with different names but I NEVER take the effort to update them.

I really envy how all the popular bloggers actually keep their blogs updated although they are REALLY busy working. Bloggers like Kenny Sia, Cheeserland and Nicolekiss really should receive award for it.

I bought a MAXIS number! I mean since I have a spare phone at home, I decided to buy one. Stella bought one too and our numbers are VERY close. LoL. Only the last 2 digits are different. LoL. The SuperSaver promotion totally caught my attention. The RM2 for 200smses Maxis-maxis , 6am - 6pm one. I drag Evonne and Stella to do it and I've been smsing Evonne the practically the whole afternoon yesterday till 6pm. LoL. There's still like 140+ sms balance but when I bought it again today, it didn't add the yesterday's balance but it's okay! RM2 is SO worth it! = D I'm happy!! - __ - ''

I'm gonna try to update with PHOTOS and INTERESTING THINGS!

11:50 AM

Wednesday, November 7, 2007
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I can't belive I'm actually saying this. I'm BORED because there's NO SCHOOL. Kill me. Now, life's all about movies and work work. I wanna study lur. I wanna hold a pen/pencil whole day long lur. I wanna laugh at Ck Danny's jokes. I wanna flip my textbooks lur. I wanna sit at my place in class lur. I miss school =( How sad is that?

BUT, I know that I won't be saying this next year. >__<

Blog's drying up. =(

No go out = nothing to blog about. Stella's birthday's coming soon!

12:05 PM

Saturday, November 3, 2007
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Not for me but my brothers (real brothers not gan ger). First bro gonna have exams tomorrow! Second bro having exam TODAY!

So gonna wish them GOOD LUCK! JIA YOU! GAMBATTE!

Remember all of us back here supporting yooh!

9:35 AM

Thursday, November 1, 2007
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Aiyar. I still remember when I used to complain that I dislike studying very much. But after about 1 month not being in school, not touching any books or stationaries made me felt kinda weird. I wanna go back to school lar! I suddenly wish that it's gonna start school tomorrow. I wanna study study! Okay.. Maybe I'll be saying this now but there's definitely gonna be a " I hate school " post next year. My bro have been advicing me that next year and this year's a big gap, in terms of the level. That scares me.

The worse part is thinking about my FUTURE! Which Uni I'm gonna persue my studies in, my ambition, and all. Omg la. I can't stand this. -__-''

I miss Taipei, I miss KL, I miss school..

Stella's birthday coming soon liao. I ask her out but she rather sleep. I felt bad can. I felt rejected lor -__-'' It kinda defines that I'm such a lousy friend that she rather stay at home and SLEEP than going out with me =( Or maybe I just think too much already.

Khung Ming & I are December's baby! -_-''

Thinking about buying me a birthday present???

*wink wink *

SE W900i is the best ! =D

9:12 PM

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Getting ready for PMR, as in studying and all really sucks. I hate last-minute cramming, as usual la.. I always study about 2-3 weeks before exams nia. Gahh, sometimes, I sure feel like giving up! Cause can't stand anymore. But, quotes that I found through the net would definitely shoot up my motivation. Unfortunately, I didn't look for any inspiring quotes at that time!! I found it today while I was surfing the net while working =D Darn.. I knew that I should've done this long ago. I've copied and paste 4 pages of really inspiring and Motivating quotes.

"Never let your head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve. Find another way. And don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines."

"Determination gives you the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before you."

"Determination and perseverance move the world; thinking that others will do it for you is a sure way to fail."

This year's gonna end in 2 months time and I'm gonna be older! OLD OLD OLD! siighs* Gonna start form 4 luuuu.

12:06 PM