Walking blindly towards the future.

Saturday, December 29, 2007
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It's a super belated post XD!

Anyways, I used my bro's dslR to that the pictures below ^.^

Okaay. I guess that's all for the tang yuen pictures.

School's starting in less than a week and what have I prepared? nothing.

3:40 PM

Monday, December 24, 2007
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11:50 AM

Saturday, December 22, 2007
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p/s : Gonna be a boring and selfish post ahead.

Why am I always the one putting in effort to maintain a friendship? Why am I always getting hurt and disappointed when the other one don't know a thing? Yes, you can say I expect too much in a friendship. But, I can't take it anymore.

Isn't bestfriend suppose to be there for you when you need them? When you're facing ups and downs? To share the happiness and sadness together? To comfort you when you're down. To lend a shoulder when you need to cry. I don't feel this at all...

The random talks, the boring talks, the craps we use to share isn't fun for you anymore. Why am I always the one there for you when you needed someone by your side,to listen to your problems, to understand you. But you disappeared when I needed you the most and you tend to be the one who don't understand me the most.

I'm always the one putting effort and time yet you never treasured and appreciate it. Why?

Am I never good enough to satisfy you? Who am I to you when I treated you the best friend anyone could ever have? Why do I even bother to put in endless effort when you did nothing?

Every year, on your birthday, I planned fun activities to celebrate with you. The first year we met, the second year we met and this year.

But what have you done for me? (: An sms. Every year, I really hope to have more than that. Even if we DID go out, it's all planned by me. I'm sick of everything planned only by ME and you, to follow it.

Sometimes, I wonder.. who am I to you? Just a friend, I now know.

Enough of that.

Why am I always choosing the wrong best buddy?

Why? Since primary school, I've always mix with the wrong person.

Why me?

Everytime, I wish you were the one to be the first to wish me happy birthday and the first to listen to my happy story, you're never the first.

It's just that, I'm so sick of calling you & smsing you to inform you new things I'm happy to have and just craps about how I am today, new friends I mix with today, etc... why can't I never get to share it with you? Why?

Thanks KhungMing, for the birthday wishes though you thought it was today when it's tommorow. (:

3:12 PM

Friday, December 21, 2007
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PMR result 2007 releasing on 27 of december 2007.

3:08 PM

Thursday, December 20, 2007
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Got this phrase from a calendar and I love it. I find it truly meaningful.

Everyday is the beginning of a new day. You have been blessed with it to use as you please. You can waste it or make it a fruitful one. What you do is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it. When it passes, you'll never get it back again. Treasure it. Make full use of it, doing good for your fellowmen, the environment. At the end of the day, you can look back and reflect on it well spent.

5:01 PM

Tuesday, December 18, 2007
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Eldest bro's birthday's the day after tomorrow and mine 3 days after his. Birth date almost the same.

Birthday's coming..

Christmas's coming..

Result's coming...

2008's coming...

School's coming..

5:17 PM

Sunday, December 16, 2007
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I wanted to blog about Evonne's pool party and Khung Ming's b'day out but I was suffering from a horrible headache. -__-''

So anyways, Evonne's pool party was awesome. Everyone went into the pool except for Stella cause she was allergy to the chlorine in the water. But it was a pretty good thing. She was the photographer of the day (for Ash and I) . Well, until I got up la (:

I was pulled in by Daph. I did not plan to get into the pool cause I wanted to teman Stella. But when everyone got into the pool except Stella and I, I know there would be a bunch of fun I'll missed. Until I was wet by Daph. Then got pulled in. And once I got in, everyone started to splash water on me. Even Edward and Natalie (shooting water gun at me -__-) For at least 5-10 minutes okay. All vs. one!

I was really happy to see Nate again. We used to be classmate (form 1) but she moved to Green Road.

I only swim for about an hour plus. Then I got up and teman Stella.

We walked around and settled down at the swing.

I tried taking photos of her but she didn't want to. It's really hard to take a proper shot of her!

In process...

Gotcha!

She said she'll cry and run away if I take picture of her one more time. But I continued. And she did -___-''!

But she came back! She thinks her hair is nice XP

And she thought I was taking picture of her cleavage but I wasn't! I was taking photos of our feet! > __ <

The pizza arrived (:

Pei Yao chasing after the pizza. +.~

Wallpaper of the day!

The next day... Was late for the KM's birthday so it was over ):

Birthday Girl.

Evonne and Shi Chun

But we still get to eat at Hartz! Paid by KM (:

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I've started to learn Adobe photoshop a few weeks ago and was really happy. It's a hobby for me now ^.^

2nd bro's DSLR, Nikon D80 is here! After so long...

picture grabbed from his blog. http://www.markkie.com

Long nose camera.

drooolsss! stabs him*

1:26 PM

Friday, December 14, 2007
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P/S : It's gonna be a boring long post with WORDS.

I still remember when I hated going to school when I was still studying in St Mary because of her. My life was miserable with her around. I had to face her. Thank God! We were seperated when we were in primary 6. We were really close for about 2 years, primary 3-5. When I meant close, I meant like.. superbly close.

But what happened? I really don't know. All I remembered was our friendship was very fake. I BOUGHT our friendship. Yes, with money. Everytime I make her angry or most of the time, she just threw tantrums at me for no reason, only money was able to take our friendship back. And yes, I was that idiot and stupid to pay her in order to continue or friendship.

I was a slave to her. She treated me like her dog, her follower. She took me for granted. Day by day, I had to pay her. I seriously had to pay her for everything. To make her happy, money. I treated her like a bestfriend I would never have.

I don't mind her treating me like a slave, I don't mind at all.

But when she actually did this, I was truly pissed. I can't belive those words actually came out from her mouth.

Everytime our ex-schoolmates talk about me, she would turned really pissed and bad-mouth me. Saying bad words then my name. "Like **** Shirley. That b****?! Don't talk about her!"
The problem is, What did I do ? Seriously, I have NO idea at all what I did. I did whatever she wants me to do. I tried SO hard to stabalize our friendship and this is how I was treated. Telling ALL my classmates that since I've moved to Lodge, I started calling her biatch, I started calling her a facker bitch. Throwing bad words to her. Did I ? OMG la. Since I moved to Lodge, I didn't even talk about her. I don't even REMEMBER her anymore.

When I was in form 1, I was invited to a good friend of mine's party and I don't know anyone except her. So, I asked HER to go with me. I was sms-ing with a good friend of mine. A guy. Guess what she did? She borrowed my handphone, telling me that she wanted to borrow it to take a look. She took his number. -__- '' I guess we were both from a female-only school so maybe she's desperate for some guy friends.

She took his number. What big deal right?

You think I mind that meh ?

She miss call him. Then my friend went and sms her. Asking her who is she. She went sorry la, wrong person, can we be friends?

That one, still acceptable right?

She told him non-sense about me. Stupid stuffs and unfortunately, my friend was interested and they started going out as friends. My friend belived her.

What have I done to her to deserve this? She hates me now. She bad-mouth and curse me non-stop when she heard my name. If you have no idea how good i treated her, you could ask my parents. I did all the best to play my part as a bestfriend. I did EVERYTHING. I always questioned myself, What else could I do ? To satisfy her? I was left blank.

Why are my bestfriends never forever? Especially when I tried my best to maintain them? What about my current bestfriends?

Will we last forever?
Stella? Evonne? Ash? Daph? Khung Ming? Chris?

Friendship is really fragile.

To the girl I've been talking about just now. No matter what, you've left sweet memories in me. I'll always treasure those memories. Time passed, and you've grown up to a teenager already. Prettier and more guy-friends too. I just wanna be the first to wish you Happy Birthday since your birthday's tomorrow. I'll still remember your birthday because you remembered mine (:
HappyBirthday, friend.

8:39 PM

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Sien. Holidays are ending, PMR results are gonna release like real soon. Darn, hate this feeling. Got headache for the past few days. Panadols tend to be useless.

I'm suffering from sleeping disorder. Gee. Sounds stupid. Since I came back from Taipei, I wasn't able to sleep without waking up at least 3-4 times. I tend to always open my eyes widely in a sudden. Looking around, an hour later, fall asleep then wake up again. Sighs* I can only sleep in the morning, when I see the sun rising at about 6.30-6.40pm. What's wrong with me? I think I'm afraid of ghost. sheesh. -__- '' But it's funny. Very often when I wake up in the middle of the night, I would just walk to the toilet, then to my phone to see what time it is. Most of the time, It would be between 4-4.30am. -__ - ... four/4 is not a good number!

Sometimes, I feel like waking my sister up cause she's sleeping just next to me. But looking at her "having-a-wonderful-dream-don't-disturb-me" face, I back out.

What's going on ?! I told my mum about it but she said I'm too afraid of my results. The point is, I wasn't even thinking about it at all for the whole holidays!

12:15 PM

Monday, December 10, 2007
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Click it to enlarge it =D

Fighting over who? o.0! Who's that cutie?

CAYDEN's mine mine mine! o.0!
p/s : Photos are copyrighted.

Thank God Cayden's in Canada! If not, I think Daph and I would be snatching him from one another!
I love you, Cayden!

1:13 PM

Sunday, December 9, 2007
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Nevermind. I've been hiding myself from blogging and watching tv recently! I've been addicted to IMVU! It's a software where you get to chat like msn but in a more interesting way.

Words appear in bubbles, there's characters and you get to dress them up. You'll get to own your own profile and purchase products by using credits for your characters also known as avatar in IMVU.

So anyways, what have been on with my life recently?

The SONY digital camera came earlier than I thought it would be. It came with poslaju! But I expect it to arrive at the week of my birthday.

Evonne invited me to the food court owned by her family few weeks ago but I didn't have time to go. So today, Evonne, Daph and I met up at her food court, FOOD AVENUE.

Sorry, pictures aren't that clear cause I'm using my phone camera. Forgotten to bring my camera. ):

The oh-so-beautiful christmas decorations in the food court!

Logo designed by EVONNE! :P

The only thing we ordered there were chocolate special(drinks), LokLok, Crispy Popiah and CHEESE spring roll. Pictures below (:

Frieddddd

Cheese spring rolls
FRIEDDD

Pimples gonna start growing.

CRISPY popiah. How often do you hear that?

Chocolate special

After eating, we walked over to Everrise which is like just beside the food court.

Daph!

Tomorrow = Evonne's po0l party.
Tuesday = Khung Ming's birthday party at Hartz.
Thursday = Bro coming back from Perth

Atleast this week's gonna be pretty exciting (:

6:19 PM

Tuesday, December 4, 2007
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T _ T! I could never get that coloured contact lens! Cause the blue are just so.. normal -.- "

11:01 AM

Monday, December 3, 2007
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Omigoshy. When I was like doing my stuffs in the office, the BOX finally arrived! I thought it would arrive right on my b'day but then, it came like 20 days earlier -__-'' But anyways, I was supper SHOCKED! at the same time excited!

BUT!

I'll blog about it tomorrow. =D

10:16 PM

Saturday, December 1, 2007
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Laptop's back and once I got the wireless fixed, I quickly downloaded like.. so many softwares. -__-'' sien.

Went to the pc fair today and it was alright. Went there with Bryan and my bro. I bought myself a 2gb "Kingston" thumbdrive for RM45. My aunt said it was pretty cheap.

I saw SONY VAIO today! Soooooo nice. Bryan loves the white one but I love the black one. Most of the computer is in Windows Vista already instead of the normal Windows XP and it look much much better also. Feel like installing it into my computer. But I'm still wondering whether I should or should not. Help help help?

After I got my laptop back, I start to appreciate it more lor. It's sooo bored living without a laptop for about 2 weeks.

Richard's living for Dubai tomorrow! Lucky dude! Don't always said I go Taiwan better la hor? I lovee to travel!

I don't wanna kill my laptop anymore so it's like I super sayang it right now. But.. I can't promise it'll last.

11:05 PM