Tuesday, July 10, 2007
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It's hard..
I've been talking more than what I could do.. I mean like, I always promised myself to study harder and acheive better grades but I don't seem to put any effort into it. PMR's in 83 days and I still can't seem to put any effort into my studies. It's easy for me to say, study. I'm gonna study but I just can't seem to do it!
How much I wished I could be as perfect as ever. To be one of the "smarties" in class and be one of the teacher's "pet". But, it'll never happen. I want to study hard and I wish all my life to get good grades but it never came true. How much I wish miracle would happen.
I could never have the chance to be like my friends who could teach the weaker ones. I just.. never have the chance because I AM one of those weak students. I could never "mix" with the smarter kids to discuss some maths or science because I got no bloody idea what they're talking about. How much I wish I could have their brains and start debating on the right answer. I just NEVER have the chance. How sad? ...
I'm sicked of it. I'm going off to study Science now. Great.. study..